Blog Therapy

Feeling the need for a little blog therapy this morning!! Before I spill my stress, know that in the end I know that God is involved in and cares about my daily life and His plan for me is at work. I have blessings pouring out of my ears that I should be focusing on and I promise that when I'm done venting I will return to reason. I'm figuring these are just growing pains that I'm experiencing. I also know that my stress is absolutely insignificant in the whole scheme of things. There are people suffering with the loss of loved ones, poverty, hunger, abuse and on and on. My problems are completely superficial and in eternity won't even be worth a mention, but, because I'm human, I experience anxiety that can only be eased through prayer, and some good old-fashioned venting.
So, here goes...I am still searching for daycare kids. Max was born in August and I was ready to return to a full income at the beginning of October. We had wisely saved for my six weeks off figuring people would be pounding down the door to bring their kids to me when I returned, but that didn't happen. I got Tara sometime in November and have had Emma for a few weeks now, but the final two openings have left us in debt not to mention I'll be losing Tara in a month or less. I think debt is a horrible place to live. I have had so many "almosts" that I'm starting to think that God is trying to teach me something specific and I'm missing the point. Am I searching hard enough? Am I spending my time in prayer wisely seeking the truth or am I sticking my head in the sand at the obvious? All I do know is that completely submitting to God's will for my life is where I need to live. He has always provided and He has always blessed me abundantly out of my trials!

Thank you God for the peace that comes only from you, Thank you for the blessings you have showered on me, Thank you that you love me and that any trial you allow me to encounter is meant for my good and for a witness to others to Sheppard your children into an eternity with you. I will praise you in the storm.
AMEN